I was just sitting around going through some old photos. I am amazed at how far I have come on this journey. I am so thankful that I have lost all this weight. I feel fantastic and as though I can conquer anything. I don’t ever think I have felt this way in my entire life as far back as I can remember. I have never felt such accomplishment, motivation, encouragement, support, love, or peace within myself. It’s mind boggling the things that go through my mind as I look back at the old photos of me. I don’t know if I want to jump up and down with enthusiasm, celebrate, smile, or cry. The emotions are honestly overwhelming. Don’t get me wrong. I am not where I want to be yet in this weightloss journey, but the fact that I have come this far throws me for a loop. It almost doesn’t seem like reality. I never took many photos or let anyone take photos of me because I knew deep down how I looked on the outside and how I felt on the inside. I didn’t even have any photos of me in my possession. My mom sent me some photos. All those photos I yelled at her for taking when I wasn’t looking are the ones I value today since I have no others. It’s the only thing I have to remind me of where I have been and whom I have become. I always hated when my mom would just snap photos without warning and I have some pretty bad ones, but after all this hard work and dedication, those photos mean something to me. Who would have ever thought?
And in the next one, my daughter and I were playing a “go under the water and see how many times you can do it in a row” game on our trip to Myrtle Beach. My husband snapped this one. As awful as it is, it is a definite reminder of how I used to look in a swimsuit (if I could find one to fit that didn’t cost $100 or more).
Now for the new me! I love having photos taken of me now. I have such a huge amount of self-confidence that I have never had before in my entire life. I am sitting right at 165 pounds at this point after having lost 125 pounds. I am absolutely loving life. I appreciate everything around me more then I ever have including my children and family. I almost feel as though I was living in a fog before. It’s so easy to ignore something that is right in front of us when it is something that is so negative like excess weight or being morbidly obese. I was pretty depressed at almost 300 pounds. It hurt to go up and down the stairs in my house. When my grandson was born, I couldn’t even carry him down the stairs for fear of my knees giving out and him going tumbling down…..same for any of my children when they were younger. My oldest daughter always carried them down the stairs for me. Every part of me always ached and I had very bad back pain all the time. Since losing all this weight, all that has gone away. I feel FANTASTIC! I just recently realized how great I feel when I was able to do all the air jumps and HIIT workouts in TurboFire. A year ago, I couldn’t had pulled myself off the ground!
This is my oldest daughter and me.
This is my husband and I a couple weeks ago at my daughter’s wedding. Being able to go dress shopping for my daughter’s wedding and everything I tried on fit and looked good had me on Cloud 9.
This is me a few weeks ago. I have lost more weight since this photo. Yes, sometimes we have to resort to bathroom mirror selfies when there is no one around to take a photo! LOL
This is my youngest son and I at the mall last week. Everyone asks me, “Why are you pointing your fingers in the air?” My response, “Cause my son wanted to! Duh!” LOL
Here is a photo of my daughter and I a couple weeks ago at Starbucks.
Here is a photo of me 2 weeks ago. I have only lost 2 more pounds since this was taken.
Here is a photo of me and my other son who is 9. I had to add this one just for the criss-cross applesauce bandage job he did on his arm! LOL
And…..here is a NOW and THEN photo comparison!
I have a few more photos, but this should wrap it up for now. I look forward to continuing my journey. My goal is 145 pounds at this point. I only have 20 more pounds to go and then I’ll reevaluate. 145 pounds was my original goal when I started this journey so getting there will be the best day of my entire life!